As the summer is coming to an end I decided to evaluate it as I have planned many things to do during the holiday. Ok, I know holiday is for relaxation but I became desired to be productive and wanted to do many things.

Actually, I have finished only the half of what I've planned. Or less.
I wanted to go through the whole Biology and Chemistry stuff that I'm going to need next year, an advanced English textbook, read much in English and many more things. But I could do only less than the half of the whole, however it still filled my summer. But it's not as big problem as if I hadn't done it, I would have thought much. I still had too much time to think.

At the beginning of July I wrote I feel invisible. It changed a bit. Now I feel invisible, superfluous and ignored. Yes, I should lie that I'm happy or anything, because people say I will be this way. No. I think happiness has a few requirements. Without them nothing can change. I could also post cats or giraffes instead of lamenting, but thus I could close the blog, too.
The worst is that I think what I feel is real. I can read between the lines. I can see what people think when they write me.

I've wanted to become happier during the summer, but I couldn't. I think I became bitter.

As a summary, I couldn't make too much advance, if I'm not fallen behind from a few aspects.